Save me

Hey Eron, just smoked two cigarette. Why the aftertaste reminds me of you?

The kids are growing fast and becoming more and more unruly. The plants are alive. The puppy Fahim rescued is getting well little by little. The sky feels scary. I miss tobacco. Where are you?

Good Morning Eron. The day started like every other day. I haven't taken my meds for two days now. Heard your voice last night. Thank you. I missed you. I miss you. Grasping the non existent straw may be, but please dont fade away. Even that voice is fine. Missing you.

Hey Eron, How long do I need to wait to die?

Most of the time I stay scared. Scared to take my meds. Scared to go out. Scared to interact with people. Scared